I apologize if this sounds like a pity party rant but I am just exhausted by the hunt. The hunt for a job with benefits, decent pay (I don't even care if it is good pay just so I can pay the bills matters to me now) and a church that I can call home. I miss Calvary, I miss WACC, here in TX it feels like you need to be showy of your money or showy of how much you love God. And right now I am just tired, tired of being patient and tired of trying to figure out since we are early to the party (moved to soon to TX) what God is trying to tell us. I know I was running from exhaustion and frustration but I think we could have stayed longer in Omaha and would have been happy at least one of us would have had a job.
Wow now this really does sound like a pity party. I just ask for your prayers and comments. Maybe we should sell it all and whatever is left pack up, put it in storage and move to Africa. At least there I could feel like I was making a difference in someone's life and that I was needed for something. Enough of the pity party for now, being hung up on really brought some frustrating feelings up to the surface. When I write again it will be on better terms.
Check please, Pity Party for 1 is out.
6 comments:
WOW!! I was seriously there last year so I know exactly what you are going through. Take it from someone who has had every thought you expressed that it will get better and you and Joey will find jobs. If you ever need to talk or just vent I'm here. Lord knows you have put up with some of my venting over the years.
Hey Jenna - Bryan had an "official" document, or so he thought. It was the keepsake from the hospital. He bought another one and then found his original under a pile of paperwork. I have complete faith that you guys will find jobs. My prayers are with you as you go through these hard times. It's ok to vent once in a while! hee hee
Oh how frustrating. Can't they just make them all the same?
Im so sorry! It is so frustrating! I can remember when we had all our stuff in storage-a new baby on the way and had no clue where we were going to live. I remember telling Erik that all I wanted was to put up my Christmas tree-I didnt care if it was in a hotel room-I wanted my tree! God was good and it all worked out. Hang in there-there is light at the end of this tunnel.
Hang in there, Jenna. It's tough when you feel like you're in darkness and have no direction. But there's always a future and a hope - you will emerge on the other side. A phrase that I have come to appreciate through the years is "This, too, shall pass." Lots of people love you and are praying for daily strength, grace, and a meaningful future for your life. Consider yourself hugged!
Great post, I am almost 100% in agreement with you
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