I didn't think it would come to this.... I need motivation so this better work.
I am almost a month away from my half marathon and this freezing Texas weather has me beaten. I have tried to maintain my diet but without the exercise I feel like I am at a horrible stand still. I have gone to the gym only a few times over the past couple of weeks. My poor dog has had to witness some strange dancing to "Happy" by Pharrell Williams and awkward pushups using the kitchen countertop just so I feel like I have worked some muscles during my day. I have had some really great long jog/walks and have managed to get up to 10.5 miles a couple of weeks ago but I just feel beaten down.
You know how every spring you find yourself going through your home and purging things that you haven't used in some time. Well I did just that with my closet and dresser a few weeks ago. I probably got rid of half of my clothes because they were too big. Some of them looked like colorful potato sacks with some embroidery on them to disguise the fact I was getting as big as I was. Well I purged and purged and purged some more. Finally half of my closet was empty and I even went through my bathing suits. That was interesting! There was one in particular, a suit that I bought before my trip to Hawaii last spring. It was a desperate attempt to look cute without feeling like a seal sunning on the beach. When I looked at it holding it up to me I cried out...Never again! It felt really good getting rid of all of those clothes. There is only one pair of pants that I held onto, promising my husband that the only reason was for comparison later on.
But even with all of that change I still feel beaten and unmotivated.
So this is what I have resorted to. How can I get some motivation? Post the selfie I never thought I would.
This is me back in September, I had already started doing some walking but wasn't as active as I was just a few weeks ago.
After taking this photo (well even during the photo) I was just disgusted with myself. I couldn't imagine why in the world I ever let myself get to this point. I was pushing a size 26 bottom and 24 in my tops.
And for comparison here is a shot from today when I came home from the gym... feeling just a bit better about myself. Forgive the hair it was a hot mess.
I feel something stirring again. Hopefully some kind of motivation will come from this post.
I know I certainly need it.
Here's to a beautiful 60+ degree day in Texas, may the sun shine brightly and may you sweat today even just a little.
Enjoy your journey.
Here's a side by side just cuz...
